the n00est n00b

So, I've become victim to another aspect of the internet; I have started blogging. It started with a simple nostalgic visit to my old livejournal, then the sudden desire to begin posting to livejournal again, then the idea to start fresh, and VOILA, here I am. I hardly think this will stick. Like all things in my life, blogging has been something I like a lot for a little while, then just stop doing it altogether for a little longer than a while. Let's hope that's not the case—again!

This shall be a place to dump my thoughts, and in a discrete way, share them with those who are up to listening. I never lose the desire to unload my thoughts somewhere, so maybe this will work in the lastest era of my life. But just in case this doesn't stick, here is an update on my current events:

.......... I start my training at Stream this coming monday. I'm scared, I'm excited, and I'm dreading every minute of it. Money will be nice to have again seeing lately I've been forced to become creative to make money in my unemployment. Just yesterday I had to roll coins and recycle bottles to get enough money for some gas money and for the fee at the pool to do some laps. I also would like to give a real gift again rather than taking advantage of the fact that my entire family is a bunch of suckers for a live performance. All I have to do for a good gift is take a song that I've refused to play even after repeated requests and learn how to play it and sing it to them. It also makes me feel a little conceited that I believe my sad excuse for a musical attempt is worth anything to anyone.

.......... My allergies are absolutely killing me. I came to the conclusion earlier today that I have to see a doctor, but the thought of trying to talk to Dr. Cadegan (my gp) makes me want to hurl with frustration. It amazes me that that man is not bankrupt from mal-practice lawsuits (amazes and disgusts me at the same time). Last time I went to talk to him about my allergies, he looked at me and said, "What makes you think you have allergies?" I was simply dumbstruck—speechless—confused by stupidity. Maybe the fact that I am absolutely suffering? Or, I only do it in certain places, after certain smells, I have no other symptoms that would classify it as a cold or the flu? OR when I take reactine I feel allllll better?! Why Doc... I have no idea. How dare I question your authority in the field of diagnostic medicine? In the meantime... I think I have Lupus. Also, I am not looking forward to explaining to him that it would be impossible for me to get rid of my cats simply because I'm allergic to them. Why do some people fail to get that?

......... I miss Halifax terribly. I know that while I was in Halifax I was always expressing that I missed Cape Breton—and my beach! But, now that I'm here, full of all this beauty, warmth, and convenience, I miss my friends back in my, more recently acquired, home. Here in Cape Breton, it feels like a home because of my house, my surroundings, my beach, and all that is familiar to me and has been constant throughout my life. Where in Halifax, it feels like home because of the knowledge that I will always have Stephanie to bring me chicken noodle soup or a flower when I'm sick, Melissa to always go out and have a good time with, T.J. to be my unconditional listener and advisor, and Kassie who's impossible to not smile around. I would however miss my go-to girl, Meghan, my random adventures with Courtney, and the comfort of hanging out with Sam. Which is why the three of you girls should move to Halifax and make life easier for me! Halifax is the city which defines my present, Cape Breton defines where I came from. Constantly being torn between the two is something I've gotten used to in the past few years of my life.

......... I started swimming again. I used to do laps every week. This past year, I haven't gone swimming once until a week ago. And even before that I hadn't swam since the summertime. By far, the longest time frame I have been without my waterwings. Last week, I died in the pool, I was hyperventilating after two laps, and my upper body hurt for a week straight, literally. This week, it was easier; I felt free again. I still nearly drowned out there because of the exhaustion I was experiencing, but I was able to chug on. Swimming again excited me. However, I do have a nasty bit of water in my ear that is proving to want to set up camp right next to my brain and stay a bit.

......... Speaking of brains... I'm obsessed with Plants Vs. Zombies. I play this game literally at least 5 hours a day; it have become slightly excessive. I've only recently dabbled into the thrill of killing zombies and pvz is the most agreeable manner of killing zombies. |A.D.D. Moment #1: The word agreeable reminds me of Pride and Prejudice. I never did finish that novel... I suppose it could be one of my readings this summer.| I could possibly combine my current obsession with my summer to-do and read Pride, Prejudice, and Zombies. I believe that book will be my personal treat to myself with my first paycheck from Stream, as a celebration of an income.

......... Lastly, my insomnia is worse than ever. It is currently 5:19AM and I feel absolutely wide awake. It could be because of my late night Coke binge, and in hindsight, I believe that may have been a bad call to pump massive amounts of sugar and caffeine into myself as a bedtime snack. My habbits need to change and that's another reason I am excited to start work. Hopefully, work will set me back on a normal schedule. |A.D.D. Moment #2: I noticed I accidentally spelled habits, HABBITS. I am way too warped by Lord of The Rings.... Which reminds me that I must catch up on the adventures and explorations of my favorite hairy Hobbits.|

So that's what currently sums up my life. What lies in the future is potentially: photoshoots (I'm doing one tomorrow/today?), beach time, movie marathons, hating my life at stream, and sitting down to relax with a book. Should be interesting.